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Recently has been feeling rather depressed and upset. Not too sure since when did I became so bothered about the positions/ hierarchy and money matters.. My first ever thoughts of wanting to climb up the corporate ladder so badly, wanting to earn more money, wanting to get acknowledgedthi.

Everyday I'm stressed about not being about to meet the standards set by my boss, I'm afraid that my work is not being seen or acknowledged. Then I was being assigned to take minutes and some PA related stuff.. And again, I questioned myself if I was so unworthy of accomplishing big projects that I was tasked to do things that even a temp staff can do?

I wanted to prove them wrong so badly, but the more i think about it, the more pressurised i became. Everyday seems bleak and i started seeking happiness outside of me, wondering why is everyone so happy. Thoughts of switching job started surfacing, thoughts of escaping..

Then i concluded that the source of my unhappiness is due to my greediness. My desire for $$ and climbing up the corporate ladder makes me an unhappy me. I started comparing myself to others and making myself miserable.

Just as I'm feeling sad.. & i saw this! :) IM SO HAPPY, NO ONE WILL BE COMPLETELY USELESS! HAHAH AT LEAST I CAN BE OF USE! *THAT FEELING LIKE YOU STRIKE 4D*